Date night

Dear Future Boyfriend:
Could you please hurry up and find me? I would really enjoy to go out to the movies.
Sincerely,
Your future girlfriend (Kristin)

I have to admit that I am kind of glad that I moved back (well I am very glad but this is a different kind of glad) because there are cute boys EVERYWHERE!!!! hahah I know that I am not suppose to be looking for a boyfriend cause then I will never find one. Or at least that what I am told. If you stop looking then he will find you. I am not sure if I believe in all of that. I am not even sure if I believe in soul mates or whatever. I feel like my situation is so messed up and I am such a weird person who would want to date me. Who out there is going to get me? I am a very very strange person. It just seems impossible that there is one person who is just like me. Not to mention now that person has to like my daughter too. Which adds an additional layer of complication to me. (perfect) But luckily Izabel is so spakin' cute and awesome it would be hard not to fall in love with her. Its that crazy mom of hers that we have to worry about. I think I have a lot to offer someone. I am funny and nice. I am not super graphic to look at so I guess that is a bonus. Then I wonder if my list of qualities I want in a boyfriend is too high. I think I should just stop thinking about it all together. I feel hopeless in finding someone. I just do not have the patience to go out and look for someone or go on dates that lead to no where. Waiting for them to call back and blah blah blah. Maybe I will just be alone for the rest of my life. It is just hard to see my mom getting remarried, both my sisters have boyfriends. I feel like I am the 5th wheel with a baby. I do not know. I should just stop feeling sorry for myself and just live it up!
But I have seen a lot of cute boys at school and at the mall the other day. So, I guess I will just look at them and day dream about going on dates. Some day maybe I will find someone. Who knows.