The pumpkin farm

 (Izabel hiding in the pumpkins)
So, last Saturday Katie, Izabel and I went to Schwans pumpkin farm. They were having a pancake breakfast to support the 4-H club. We got up early and headed out in the cold to the pumpkin farm. I dressed Izabel in a ridiculously cute flower outfit that I got for $2. We were all bundled up and walked around the farm. Izabel had her first encounter with some farm animals which was very funny. Her eyes got so big as the goats stuck their heads through the fence at us. hahah I think she was a little scared. Then all the geese, ducks and chickens started making all kinds of noise. She seemed to like the birds better. I cant wait to take her back when she is older so she can feed the animals. Then we took some funny pics of Izabel. We were going to go on the hay ride but it was kind of expensive. We will have to go back to get pumpkins cause it was kind of early for them. But it was a lot of fun. I can not wait for Halloween this year. I had Izabel's costume all planned out but now I am not sure about it. I was going to be a banana and so was she and then I had a giant gorilla costume. Now I do not have anyone to be the gorilla though :( So, it might be back to the drawing board or I just may do it anyway since I bought the costumes along time ago. Its not like she can go trick or treating anyway.

 (the whole costume)

Its wednesday

This morning really did not start out super great. I had a migraine when I got home from school yesterday. It went away for a while but then when I went to bed my whole right side of my head hurt. I was planning on sleeping it off. Well I woke up every half hour in a lot of pain finally at 3 I got up and took some more pills. Eventually the pain went away until I woke up. Then I did not have time to take a shower and my hair was a hot mess! But I did get to sit next to a cute boy on the bus! hooray! I probably should have made an attempt to talk to him but whatever. I am sure he thought what the heck is wrong with this girls hair? Doesnt she own a mirror? Graphic!!!!!!!!! Well art class was a lot of fun. We got to watercolor. And mine turned out pretty jazzy.

I still have to write my essay to get admitted into the college of education and have been putting it off for a few days. I just do not see the point in writing an essay explaining why I think I am going to be a good teacher or what qualities I possess to be a good teacher. I feel all the essays are going to be the same...patience, creativity blah blah blah. Whatever! I was already admitted into the college of ed at ASU! dont you people know who I am! gees.

the need to blog

Sorry whoever is reading this! I have been ill and super busy with school and things! Unacceptable really! I am sure you have been missing my thoughts as I have missed sharing them. I have to write two papers today before I can blog. I have so many things to say ughhhhhhh! school why?!??! I have to tell you about the funny thing izabel keeps doing with her nose and makes me laugh so hard. She is really starting to crawl all over the place. And we took her to the pumpkin farm so  I have pics from that. But none the less I will blog later tonight. So, if you can hold on a few more hours it will all be ok! do not worry i have not forgotten about you.

why I hate tuesdays

Dear reader:
I hate tuesdays! I just thought you should know and today is tuesday so I am not in a good mood. Tuesdays I never seem to make it to the bus on time and it is the longest day of classes. I am at school from 9:30 until 4! That is a very long day for me. And Izabel has to be at daycare from 8:15am until 5:15pm unless my little sister can pick her up. I love her daycare provider she is the nicest lady and is excellent with izabel I just feel that is a really long day for me to be away from her. hahah
The reason i really dislike this tuesday is cause I did not know it was going to be nice. So, I dressed for cold weather. When I got outside it was nice and the sweatshirt I was wearing made me sweat (hahha). I dressed izabel in this ridiculous cute ladybuy footed onesie with a matching hat. And of course she was sweating when we got to the car as well. I was making good time this tuesday though until I got about 10 minutes away from my house and realized I forgot my cell phone. ARE YOU KIDDING ME!?!?!? no reader, I was not kidding. I had to turn around and go get it. So, now I am sweating even more. ugh! I finally get to the daycare 10 minutes late. So, now I am franticly trying to get to the bus on time and miss the first one and barely make it to the next one. Then after my first class what do I do, even though I told myself 3 times not to, I forgot my stupid sweatshirt in my classroom! UGH! what a day and it is only 1pm. hahha what a rough life I lead. I know it is really not that bad there are people without food and shelter and I am complaining that I left my sweatshirt in my room. wow. Well, its my blog so to me this was a rough morning.
Additional thoughts of the day: I hate that I was raised to do the right thing. (not really) But having a moral compass can be horrible. I always end up doing the "right" thing because I am suppose to even if I do not want to. I will refrain from giving the example that making me state this because (someone might read it and I will get in trouble) I am not suppose. Its not that I do not like this person or the nice thing they want to do but I just feel like I shouldnt have to do this. It is not my responsibilty. Its just not fair. But as we all know LIFE is not fair. I just feel like i get the raw end of every deal and someone (who will remain nameless but if you know me, you know this person) gets off scott free. NOT FAIR people. And I guess that is all I have to say (very vaguely). The end!

Also, I feel like I might be getting the cold my little sister has which is also making this tuesday less enjoyable. PEAS! I must load up with vitamin C and get lots of rest cause I really, really, really, hope Izabel does not get sick. It would be so hard on me knowing she is sick and I have to be at school and I cant hold her and make her feel better :( But I can not think like that she will be ok!

Single ladies

S, the other night my mom told me that I should join a single mothers group at school. (I am noticing a vast majority of my posts involve my mom, who does not want to have a blog or write about her.) I thought this was very funny and ridiculous. A single moms groups? Really? Well, I just laughed and starting singing "all my single ladies, all my single ladies..." And making izabel dance with me which my mom did not think was very funny. But I thought it was hilarious as I sang and danced horribly all around my kitchen with Izabel.

Why blogging is bad

These are not my words they are my mothers. Which if she read this would probably be upset that I am blogging about it. hahah too bad. She feels that blogging is bad cause what if someone reads it and takes it the wrong way and becomes upset. Well, I feel this is my own personal space to share my thoughts, feelings and events that happen to me. So, I guess if you do not like it then dont read it. There you go. You can not get upset at someone for having thoughts thats ridiculous. I do understand where she is coming from but for me this blog is helpful. So, far no one has read it so I do not see the problem. But something I write could always come back to me and be harmful in some way I guess. Whatever, moms always thinking they know best!!

Izabel sat up

Last night after Izabel decided to take a nap at like 7 pm which totally throws off her routine and makes her actual bedtime way late. Anyway, she woke up at 8:12 pm when my mom  came in and she sat herself up all by herself. I was in such shock because she has been trying for weeks to sit herself up and then she just does it. And she did it 2 more times after that. We were all so excited!! Later I helped her by holding her legs down since she sticks them in the air and she pushed herself up and sat up. We did this a number of times and she thought it was so funny. I am going to have to try to take a video cause it was hilarious!!

Dinner with Elise

Finally, one of my friends did not bail on me cause they are old. Which I find very funny cause we are all the same age and I have a kid so you think I would be the one that is always tired. WRONG!! hahha Anyway, Elise and I went to DeRangos and got pizza. It was nice hanging out with her, I forgot how much fun we have together. I also left Izabel at home since she makes eating a challenge sometimes and I figured grandma could handle it for an hour. Our waitress looked like she was like 12 and totally did not laugh at any of my jokes. Elise and I laughed so I know they were funny. I would think as a waitress you would be excited by some funny customers, also WRONG! After dinner we went and looked at a house for Elise.
(as I am writing this I realize it is not as exciting as I remember last night, I even thought about erasing it but too bad. You, readers out there knew what you were getting into before you starting reading my blog, I clearly said it was going to be boring. )
When I got home and put Izabel to bed I began to lurk on facebook. Which lately I have found makes me a little depressed so that is another reason I began this blog. I go on there and see all the fun times other people are having. How all of my friends are getting married, having babies and buying houses. I know I have a baby who is wonderful and I wouldnt trade for anything in the whole world but I cant help wishing things would have been different. I know you are not suppose to be jealous of what other people have and everyone keeps telling me, I'll find someone and have all of that. So, the rational side of me knows it will happen but the emotional side of me still can not help feeling hurt and sad by what I see others have. So, I think I am going to make an effort to not lurk on others facebook pages and just appreciate what I have. I guess I just never thought my life would be where it is. If that makes any sense at all. As I kid I thought I would go to college graduate, get a job, get married, buy a house then have babies. But alas that was not the path for me. And I hope this does not come across as me resenting Izabel cause I defintely do not. I can not image my life without her actually. Its weird that you can love a person that much and even before you meet them. That is one thing that has really shocked me as a mother. Its so crazy that you are capable to that much love.

As, I am writing this I am in the quiet study area at school listening to this guy snore ridiculously loud. Which is makes me laugh. I just got finished with art class which I totally love. It puts me in such a good mood and makes me want to be an art teacher. I am currently missing Izabel cause she was still asleep when I left for school and my mom took her to daycare. My favorite part of the morning is when she wakes up and always has a smile on her face. Which when I am really tired and do not want to get out of bed makes it all worth it, seeing that little face with that huge ridiculous smile looking up at me from her crib.
Side note: WOW! I have a lot to say who knew! hahah Stay tuned world I have a whole brain of thoughts for you to know about. 

Ice Cream

So, last night after we went and did a parade of homes,  my mom and mark are looking for a new house, my mom decided she wanted ice cream. We did the McDonalds drive thru and she got a $.49 cone. And of course Izabel saw it and got very excited. So, my mom let her have some and I was in the front seat driving powerless to stop this. Well Izabel decided to grab the whole cone and tried to shove it into her mouth. Which caused my mom to laugh for 20 minutes. Izabel loves ice cream apparently and continued to eat it.

Not a great picture but you can still see the ice cream all over her face. Thanks, grandma!!

A picture of Izabel and myself

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My first Post!

Dear whoever decides to read this!

I have decided to start blogging because facebook does not meet all my needs to express myself and my crazy life.
Today is Sunday and it is rainy and cold. I am supposed to be doing some homework like reading and stuff but I do not want to. This morning Izabel woke up at 4:50 am ugh! that was way to early espcially since she did not fall asleep until 11:30 pm cause she took a nap at 7 pm. I slept in until like 10 and of course missed church. Then Izabel and I ate breakfast and took a bath. She almost sat herself up today which I was so excited about. I laid a blanket on the ground so she could practice crawling. She rolled over onto her back and began lifting her head up trying to sit up. She almost had it but her foot got stuck on the other one and she ended up on her tummy again. Oh well, we will keep practicing. Later this afternoon I am suppose to get dinner with my friends who bailed on my last night. We were suppose to get drinks but 9 pm was too late cause they are all old. hahah And then I found out my sister stole my sweatshirt! Which really pisses me off cause I have like one half of a closet and like 7 sweatshirts. Where as she has like a whole closet then clothes all over the floor. Why the heck does she need to steal my things!! Ugh and she is sick with a cold so shes been coughing all over it! Unacceptable. Well that is all my thoughts at this moment. I know that was so interesting to read dont you want to find out more about me and my crazy life!! Whoa the excitement continues later.......