Finally, one of my friends did not bail on me cause they are old. Which I find very funny cause we are all the same age and I have a kid so you think I would be the one that is always tired. WRONG!! hahha Anyway, Elise and I went to DeRangos and got pizza. It was nice hanging out with her, I forgot how much fun we have together. I also left Izabel at home since she makes eating a challenge sometimes and I figured grandma could handle it for an hour. Our waitress looked like she was like 12 and totally did not laugh at any of my jokes. Elise and I laughed so I know they were funny. I would think as a waitress you would be excited by some funny customers, also WRONG! After dinner we went and looked at a house for Elise.
(as I am writing this I realize it is not as exciting as I remember last night, I even thought about erasing it but too bad. You, readers out there knew what you were getting into before you starting reading my blog, I clearly said it was going to be boring. )
When I got home and put Izabel to bed I began to lurk on facebook. Which lately I have found makes me a little depressed so that is another reason I began this blog. I go on there and see all the fun times other people are having. How all of my friends are getting married, having babies and buying houses. I know I have a baby who is wonderful and I wouldnt trade for anything in the whole world but I cant help wishing things would have been different. I know you are not suppose to be jealous of what other people have and everyone keeps telling me, I'll find someone and have all of that. So, the rational side of me knows it will happen but the emotional side of me still can not help feeling hurt and sad by what I see others have. So, I think I am going to make an effort to not lurk on others facebook pages and just appreciate what I have. I guess I just never thought my life would be where it is. If that makes any sense at all. As I kid I thought I would go to college graduate, get a job, get married, buy a house then have babies. But alas that was not the path for me. And I hope this does not come across as me resenting Izabel cause I defintely do not. I can not image my life without her actually. Its weird that you can love a person that much and even before you meet them. That is one thing that has really shocked me as a mother. Its so crazy that you are capable to that much love.
As, I am writing this I am in the quiet study area at school listening to this guy snore ridiculously loud. Which is makes me laugh. I just got finished with art class which I totally love. It puts me in such a good mood and makes me want to be an art teacher. I am currently missing Izabel cause she was still asleep when I left for school and my mom took her to daycare. My favorite part of the morning is when she wakes up and always has a smile on her face. Which when I am really tired and do not want to get out of bed makes it all worth it, seeing that little face with that huge ridiculous smile looking up at me from her crib.
Side note: WOW! I have a lot to say who knew! hahah Stay tuned world I have a whole brain of thoughts for you to know about.
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